the past couple days have been rough. . . it seems that after a weekend of drinking my emotional balance always tips heavily. i had very strong emotions yesterday and today that were hard to work out. normally i sit around and do nothing when they come about but today i made myself get up early and go out and play with the dogs, mend the fence, clean the kitchen... just do stuff. it helped to pull me out of the funk and realize once again that i am content with the direction i am moving in. it is a slow pursuit, but it is a pursuit to what i want. i realize that what i want is simple and to a lot of people poor, for lack of better words.
i want a small house on a wooded property.
i want a porch with a swing and a girl and a dog.
i want to watch the sunrise on saturday with a cup of coffee...
and i want to watch the sunset on saturday with a beer.
i want a job that keeps me kind of busy.
i want a truck and a motorcycle.
i want free time.
i want to take a tuesday vacation on occasion.
i want a little garden.
i want books.
i want a camera and a printer.
i don't want cable.
i don't want a schedule.
i don't want a financial planner.
i don't want a personal assistant.
i don't want traffic.
i don't want tourists.
i know that in simplicity i find who i am.
That sounds fucking perfect.
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